I’m not myself lately. I just, wish for once when someone tells you they love you that they mean it. That something shitty wouldn’t happen once I am happy with my life. I just want to be left alone, not having someone constantly asking what I’m doing or what should we do tonight. I just want to be myself. I want to be independent but have someone there when I need them, and not taking advantage of me. I open my heart to strangers thinking they won’t break my heart in so many ways and that they’ll I’ve back to what I already give. But it doesn’t happen. I don’t know the meaning of the word team anymore. Everyone who I once trusted have broken every aspect of it. Someone who I once thought would be there for me like I was for them will run as soon as I need comforting. It’s just a very selfish world out there and I’m so sick of it. I’m sick of these people and their incessant need for attention. I just hate everything about this place.
I’m not okay.