I just don’t know how to handle my current situation. I’ve been “single” for about 2 years now. Every time I came close to a relationship, I’ve backed out and hid for a while. Though, just recently I’ve longed for one…maybe to feel like I have a sense of security, to know that someone wants to be with me and to know that I’m wanted.
Well…here I am. Now I’m in a relationship, but I’m not happy. I don’t know if it’s me not being happy with him, or if it’s me not being happy with a relationship in fear that it’s going to end the same way my last one did. And the last thing I need is a broken heart.
No, I don’t love him.
I like how we are, most of the time. But sometimes I need to be comforted. And feel like hes always there for me, and he doesn’t give me that.
We went into this knowing we wouldn’t have much time for each other. But now that we’re in this, we talk less when were not together…and when we are together, it’s never alone.
I don’t know if I”m being a complete woman about this by saying I need more, unknowing if I can even handle it…or if I really do need more out of a relationship….and if I need to just end it, if this is how it’s always going to be.
There are just some paths that lead to a better destination, though once there it’s nice at first…but you still long for the other place…